“Besides [New York City’s] micro-unit law, did you know that it’s illegal for three unrelated adults to live together? That means that common living arrangements, such as five artists living in a loft, two families living together or a family living with a couple of unrelated adults are actually illegal.”—Who’d Live Here? Micro-Units and NYC Housing Needs
It’s unstable thus unsustainable so in January, after spending more than half of my life on Adderall, I started to cut back and now am off the drug that was such a major part of my life. (Since the Sunday before Memorial Day)
Yay high five! Please hear me out on this-how much weight gain would you tolerate to improve your health and add years to your life? For me it’s almost 20 lbs put on to my once teenytinyadorablelittlebodyover the past 6 months. Why am I bringing this up and linking/bolding gratuitously? Because every time I get frustrated by the fact that I’m tired all the time, scattered, and that nothing I own fits me anymore the first thing I think to do is call my doctor for a prescription. I need to print out 20 copies of this to remind myself that there is a good reason behind this and not to go back to my beloved orange pills. Adderall was my super power, it burned every calorie I consumed, pushed me through hungover mornings, 17 hour work days, and countless boring tasks. Now I’m just a normal person with a fucked up metabolism who needs to nap 3x/day.
Before you click send on the hate mail- yes, I work out and very carefully watch what I eat. I knew I would gain weight when I quit but thought 15lbs would be the worst case scenario. I’ve gained a few pounds since Q Day, although I did weigh myself at 8 PM today with shoes on and wet hair, so maybe I’m still at +15?
I know I’m a horrible person and people are starving and dying in wars-two things I dislike much more intensely than my own personal dilemma. I know my life could be much worse, this is beyond a 1st world/white girl problem, it’s a New York fashion/social bullshit problem but it’s what I’m going through and my pain feels the same as yours, even if, by all other standards “I have it better” -and for some this next statement will apply: fuck you for judging me for judging myself while going through a series of incredibly challenging changes, Adderall and “real” problems-including the majority of the top 5 of life’s most stressful events, some more than once recently, and having to completely re-calibrate my life-beyond the pills. Nothing is ever as it seems. So this is where I am right now. And I’m still actually happy, I just need to keep moving forward and not get tangled and drown in the details while I’m moving so quickly ahead.
Any other long term Adderall users out there who have quit? Feel free to comment or message me. As said above, I’ve been on this shit more years of my life than not and I have no idea what life with out it will be like. I’ve quit before, from 2nd semester senior year of highschool until 2nd semester freshman year of college, then for a week or two here and there every other year or so. I’m doing this completely on my own. It’s hard. Less than a handful of my IRL friends know that I’ve been dealing with this for 6 months. What else can I expect?
Hopefully no one sends you hate mail about that post you wrote about adderall because it is an extremely hard thing to quit both psychologically and physically (as you already know.) I don't know if it matters but I'm here to tell you that your metabolism and sleep will return to normal after a while. I was on adderall xr for about 3/4 years and I quit last July 2011 so I know how difficult it is. You're bettering yourself by allowing your mind/body to normalize, adderall just dumbs it down. <3
Thank you!! I’m trying to balance pushing myself beyond what I’m comfortable doing and being compassionate toward myself while I transition. I know so many others have done this and after 15 years of adderall I need to redefine many parts of my life. Glad to hear you found your way off of it.
One Giant Leap ft Michael Stipe and Asha Bhosle, The way you dream
You guys!! I finally got the lyrics for Asha Bhosle’s part in this song and let me tell you-it was worth the effort (aka harassing a friend in India for the past year) to get them.
So here are the full lyrics with translation for one of my favorite songs courtesy of Prasad, thank you very much.
Only Silence remains because I have to listen to him, I have to listen to the silence. I have to experience him.
karmany evaadhikaraste ma phalesu kadacana ma karma phala hetur bhur ma te sango’stv akarmani paritranaya sadhunam vinasaya ca duskrtam dharma samsthapanarthaya sambhavami yuge yuge
You have Adhikara (ability, choice) over your respective duty only, but no control or claim over the results. The fruits of work should not be your motive. You should never be inactive. Whenever there is a decline of Dharma (world order) and the rise of Adharma, O Arjuna, then I appear (or manifest myself). I appear from time to time for protecting the good, for transforming the wicked, and for establishing Dharma, the world order.
Fall over myself don’t mean to interrupt I was miles away Things I forgot are the footstools of God. That’s how I behaved I frighten myself and folded my hand as you talked to god. I love the way you dream. (x9)
Even my most base complaint my sweet, my aims were lower And even though all my restraint my sweet my aim was clumsy. And even if there’s only one thing I want for you..I want for you.
I love the way you dream (x 3) I love, love the way you dream I love the way you love the way Even if there’s only one thing I want for you, I want for you I love the way you love the way you dream, one for me one for you, one for me, one for you…
PS I SWEAR I WILL POST THIS SONG UNTIL YOU LISTEN TO IT AND LOVE IT SO MIGHT AS WELL….